cmart1123

Used to be a semi pro making half my yearly income off poker for almost 4 years until Black Friday while holding a job.SInce I was a semi pro I didn't get to put in the volume I wanted to so I would get even higher numbers but I have made over $24k in winning from playing $1-$11 tournaments over a 6 years span. Everything has been taking from me like most of you. I recently got back into the swing of things and went to the WSOP last year and won a small stakes tourney at the Mirage which netted me profit on the trip. My 2nd tournament back last year I got 5th in the $25k gtd on ACR and it felt like the old days and I even got outdrawn at the Final Table to remind how harsh poker can be too. Since then I have made some runs online on some sites and havedone very well in tournaments and have won at least 10 in 2015 and already won 3 in 2016 with many final table but I find variance worse than normal sometimes. Cash games has been a big awakening as far as reminding me how the swings can be. I will absolutely crush cash games sometimes but then my hands go from holding up most of the time to a long string of outdraws. I'm not a whiner I'm logical and I have played cards since I was 5 years old and played for money since I was 8 and started playing online at 15 and now I'm 29 so I have been around the block so like many of you it's not a whine it's more like you want to figure out if there is anything you can do or if it's something you just have to take regardless. It's hard for someone who lives in Illinois to become a pro especially while having a full time job now since I have no choice and a family to take care of all while pursuing a dream that seems possible again. Variance is something I know very well like all of you but besides being strong mentally how do we take this in stride?It's pretty obvious when it's a mistake on my behalf in a hand or mismanaging my bankroll all of a sudden on one day that's all very obvious to a good player but what do you do when you seem to continually get outdrawn in huge situations and you slowly lose your bankroll day after day. I use to never play every single day but I feel like that shouldn't matter and it changes nothing mentally or in my strategy but in saying that sometimes I do take a day off. This is suppose to be a Bio but I also need answers I need that absolute confidence even when getting fucked over and over not just confidence but absolute confidence in oneself continually. I think coaching is huge if it's someone good but it's expensive and very hard to even contact a person like that even if you have $2k an hour to spend on a coach. I study all the time pretty much daily but there's always room for improvement. Hopefully www.runitonce.com will be my home so I can take what I have always wanted with the help of some of the finest players in the world