I've had a recurring pattern for a while now. Deposited 20-50, run it up to over 1k playing 5nl-25nl over a few months, then get doomswitched and go broke. Instead of going into details of events everyone has experienced, I'll basically experience some extreme negative variance over a short time period and let it tilt me into oblivion.

I ordered the mental game by Jared something that everyone talks about, NL heads up by Will Tipton. I'm getting Applications by Janda, Easy game, and The Intelligent poker player from a friend. I really want to take my game to the next level because I'm lacking theory and discipline as of now. Any other recommendations of study methods or practices are appreciated!

I've self banned my poker accounts until after my University studies are done in May (I actually did that after I busted my account again because I realized that in my current state, I will never be a long term winning player, even if I win over a 100k sample if I can't control my emotions, I should just quit).