http://jaredtendlerpoker.com/mental-game-of-poker/free-copy-of-tmgp-audiobook/

Its just variance man, you got your money in good. Would definitely recommend this book if variance in poker is an issue for you (as it is for all of us to some degree) :)

Yeah, I've read it and it's an awesome book. But I can't neglect the facts either and my experience lately just SCREEEMS rigged, cursed or sometimes it feels like I'm playing on a private site which looks like stars.

Sometimes a lot of player just calls or shove in really bad spots out of spite. And that should be good, but since I play few tables it makes it hard to get itm or really deep.

Well, I renewed my sub here and will play a little. Maybe I can get it to work.

i have been through worse...we all have been there mate