I´ve been thinking a lot why I  playing, I dont think I ll be winning and playing when I will be 50, even i dont know if I´ll reach 50, so Im not fully convinced that its for money. Why?

Because, for making money running a business, being politician, etc are better ways, well, not better, given the facilities poker gives you nowadays, but give you more financial freedom and let you win even more without the need of stay working everyday, another way to say it there is an end, when hard work like in the beginning, is necessary.  

In my case, that doesnt mean I dont feel bad by having a natural losing streak,is money and hurts losing it.

But if I am playing for money, due to my big ambitions, will be for at least a good amount that could give me financial freedom for many years. 

The reality.....I dont know why Im still worrying now because I dont win big as others or lose, according to what I've said I find STUPID my worry now when I lose some money in micros, so orientate my progress now by dollars won I think has no sense, I havent won anything, Im a split mentality person, a losing streak is a nosebleed big blind XD.

Improve with no rewards at the moment seems to be the way, but way for what?...

Winning bigger amounts or being a world class player, if I dont fully consider money my reward,I dont know  if feeling that you are one of the best is a reward that can take its place? (Well maybe im saying this because I havent won a good amount of money and I havent put the amount of work needed to play higher which its true hehe)

But if I want to reach high, for example being a world class player, I dont have to care about money because wont let me feel comfortable betting bigger each time I jump into stakes (sth necessary to play against good competition)

On the other hand, if I want to win a lot, I have to care about money, so if I care how much I lose, how big are my big blinds, where I will go?? 

I ll only reach a stake where the amounts related to my money impression and expenses wouldnt be too big?

In fact, I think you shouldnt care of money if you want to play high, or both are possible?

Im young in this world of poker, but Im always questioning habits, and repetitive behaviours in people focused in goals, but many times I found their approach (also mine, and a lot) isnt the correct one, ie having a 9-5 and want to become a businessman, best soccer player and not even playing in a serious team or an excellent player and posting on forums, ohh thats seems to work!!... If thats true the best and every good player here will comment my post hehe (just joking) 

(Maybe Im boring, not getting replies and you may think its a subtle way to hide my lack of hard work, its true in  his most part, but seeing what are you doing from outside I think gives you a better perspective and keep you motivated to do what are you doing everyday, and the scope it may have at the end)

With nothing more to say, I will be waiting for your opinions which sometimes leave me speechless and I find difficult to reply it, but I ll do my best this time and try to keep this thread alive, because others died very young lol :).

Greetings Juan.