Hi guys, I would like to share my experience to have some advice and courage to keep working hard. 

I play poker professionally since last year. I started from NL50 and the first 4month I had to spend a lot for everything (deposit for the house, lap,screen and every stuff when you moved somewhere) and my winrate wasn't enough high to bring some profit at the end of the month. I'v almost always won, just not enough (.5bb/100, paying 9bb/100 of rake). So in november I decided to level down at NL25. The stuff went well and at the 10 of january I was at NL50 again (150BI). From january to july my game changed drastically cause I took the game more seriously and I arrived easily at NL100 with some shot at NL200. 

I decided to spend the summer in Italy with family and friends and I have done some travels in Morocco, france, Spain and Austria.During that time I studied a lot, watched vid, talking with NL200-400 guys and doing a lot of math. I also decided to have an aggro bankroll managment with shot at NL150 and 200, but it went pretty bad and I runned 4bb/100 under the expectation (just 120k hands cause I decided to play just 6x) and riched the stop loss I came down to NL100 and 50 again.

After that I'was winning 6EV bb/100(always paying 9bb/100) in 220k hands and I felt pretty confident with my game and I came back at NL100 stable. 

And here we go, this is the month indicted, the one that's undermining my certainties:

I'm loosing 62BI and 51 in the last 8 days. I'm sad, not confident with my game even if my coach and roommate (who plays NL400) told me I'm playing good (truly,believe me, I'm completely honest).

During this days I worked a lot on my ranges and with crev but everytime I sit on the table everything just go wrong and I'v got the sensation that everyone are just destroying my game.

In the last year I worked a lot on mental stuff and after some month of work I felt my mindset was solid, but right know I feel so sad and weak. 

It's just the second month of my short "career" that I loose, and I feel myself lucky  for that(I'm also proud of that cause I spend a lot of hours to improve my game).

I'm not a skilled player, but I work a lot and your advice will help me a lot. 

ty everyone, I hope not to be seen as the usual crappy whiner .

Sorry for my english, hope you all can undestand at least something.