Hello everyone,
My name is Ryan I have been playing Poker for 6 years now and the last 3 years serious.

I play MTT's Mirco to High stakes and I play about 95% on 888 ,because I quite like the smaller fields and more fishes and donks in general.

This is nothing special whatsoever i know, but I have around 50k profit playing MTT's I have final tabled a couple of Sunday Majors before and use to have a decent tournament win rate.

Over the years I have seen and had my fair share of downswings / bad beats ,but nothing like the brutal downswing I am experiencing right now.

2015 was the worst year I have ever had in my on-line poker career and my pokertracker graph is shocking as a result.

I got a job last year as a fencer due to the money I was losing and I think it effected my game even more as it was very physical and it made me really tired at night to grind so it limited my grinding sessions.

As from Dec 2015 i started playing fulltime again on 888 and up untill may this year 2016 my downswing continues.

Just to give you a couple of small examples of a couple of bad beats whats happening to me

last 10 in the $6 2500 r & a on 888 850$ for 1st place, i am chip leader with 305,000 last two tables 5 on each table i open a7s UTG, a newbie agro donk calls on his BB with a 280k stack flop = 2 s 2 h 3 s , BB donkey donk bets 37k into a 43k pot , i call turn is the 10 of spades I have the NUT flush, the bb donk jams 180k into 140k pot i snap call ...
the donk had the 10 of hearts and the 6 of clubs ... river was 2 !!

Last 10 in the Cyclone on 888 4th in chips short stack jams UTG 12 bbs i have aqc on the BB with 60 bbs the SB Iso's the short he has 55bbs ( i knew he was iso'ing with a hand that i had crushed, )i go with my reads so i snap call and yip he had jkos but hits the jack.

I wont bore you with any more bad beat storys but my piont is anytime i get an oppertunnty to make some serious $$ againh i am getting screwed ,this is happening to me constantly now and over a very long period of time and i end up cashing a MIN'ish amount and lose that playing more and more tournaments.
seems to be a pattern here..

I have cut back in games play less tables and starting grinding micos and its happening to me again and again
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I always keep on top of my poker game I constantly study the game I go over hand historys ,I watch top pros that I admire ,i chat with some other good regs on skpye i watch videos I still believe i have a bit of an edge but I am actually mentally fkd now with all this bull shit i am getting.

I have never bubbled so many final tables and unreal suckouts deep in games so constantly like this in my life on 888 . I actually starting to think that the software seems to favour for newbie donk players. I have spoke to a few long term regs on there and they tend to agree with me.

Started playing on Stars i think its got all the best tournaments and the poker software is the best but the fields are so huge , just recently i last last 50 in the big $11 in a 6000 field its soul destroying
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ok rant over ..
not sure what to do now ((( but i think i am going to take a long break from online poker so i joined this great site and check out all the vid's