*Updates will be in the comments.

Okay, to be honest, I don't totally suck at poker. But I don't crush at it either. I want to get better at it but it seems the more I learn, the more I realize I suck. I went away after Black Friday, then I return to find out that I have to actually do math to win. Put people on ranges, balance my ranges, pay attention to every detail, realize my equity, do statistical analyses!? WTH happened to the small stakes I used to know?

I am just a bit disheartened tonight after losing $100 two nights in a row. Heck I have been losing big for the last 3 weeks! I know it is just variance and I hope it turns around soon, because I don't want to have to deposit again. I deposited $50 last nov. and haven't looked back. I got up to around $1600 before I started losing bad, which is why it hurts. I was already planning on how I was going to make poker my second stream of income. Right now I only have $420 left. How am I supposed to call that a bankroll? I know I shouldn't feel this way and should just look at what I started with just a few months ago but...

Oh how I want so badly to be able to play in the mid and high stakes! But I have a loooooong way to go in my development as a poker god.