I'm not too sure when i will be grinding again (my brief bout of LIVE Play ended dismally a few hours ago) BUT when i sit down to my next poker hand i want strive for a mental state that encompasses these 3 things:

CONFIDENCE - going with my gut instinct. The amount of times i've read the hand correctly and then decided to take a "lesser low variance route" is pathetic. I see players opening/3betting wide and instead of pouncing i just fold my rags. I tell myself that if i'm 3betting/4betting here i have way too many bluff combos and they will exploit me... but they won't, i didn't game select only to grant these players the ability to fight back, its why i'm in the game in the first place. Maybe there is an argument for still folding J9o ... 85o versus 3betting or maybe i should just pull the trigger.

COMPOSURE - during LIVE Play make sure i never reveal my emotions/strength/weakness. Overall my goal is to stop whining like a little bitch every time i have a losing session or lose a 500bb+ pot OR any other time things don't turn out favorably for me. So i've been on another downswing, so my bankroll is depleted. i need to man the fuck up and get shit organised. I have some good habits in place, but now is the time to step up and truly push for REAL success. I need to live, breath SUCCESS and take REAL ACTION everyday to reach my goals.

ACCEPTING VARIANCE - to further elaborate from Composure, I don't think i've understood just how this game works. there are so many variables before one truly feels they get the result. AND so many cognitive biases at work, some i know of some i don't. I have to internalize and accept the nature of the game and get on with making the best decision i can. AND when my stack gets shipped across the table, i need to be able to reach into my pocket, take out another buy in and play the best poker i can, believing in my ability to outplay, outwit and outfox my opponents, knowing that i am there living my life to its full potential and working my ass off to get to what i want most. 

.. the only thing left is for me to decide what i TRULY WANT and WHY i want it so bad