I feel like I made a mistake here, but I think it's a mental game mistake more than a technical one, even though I do believe the technical one is important to look at I feel like I wouldn't have made it if I hadn't had the mental mistake first.

Mental mistakes:

- I take it personally when people flat my 4bets, I have some ego issue where I feel like they don't respect my bets, deep down the issue is I'm not very good at playing 4bet pots with marginal holdings, so the fact that I get mad when this happens means I need to work on this area

- Once I feel villain plays poorly by flatting my 4 bets wide I justify his bad call preflop and make an even bigger mistake myself postflop and I lose money because of this

Any advice for a mental game slump? Over the past month I've worked so hard on improving my mental game but as I got pretty close to establishing my bankroll (40 buy ins) I started to get really results oriented and started checking the cashier a bunch. This happened to me when I got up to around $500 bankroll too. I would get really excited to have reached that milestone and then have a bad session where I fail to quit a player better than me and lose money. I know I have to do all the things I have already proven that helps me win, but I am having a lot of trouble implementing it. And now I'm started to doubt my game and wondering if I even have any clue what I'm doing. And I'm starting to wonder whether I even deserve my wins up to this point.

Things that I think make me win:

- 1 table, 1 opponent. I feel like I play my best when I have all my focus on one table and don't play more than 1 table. Sometimes when I tilt I play more tables and this is a recipe for me to lose money very quickly. Especially you can start to get in the tilt zone and start clicking buttons and spewing and since you are not in a state of awareness you won't realize you are playing your C game until it's too late!

-Table select like a dumb knit. I know that people tend to overestimate their edges in the game, and I am no different. I'm not God's gift to 25NL and I don't even have a solid fundamental understanding of the game much. If I start to play a player who is better than me or who I can't figure out or who always seems to pick off my bluffs, whether my ego likes it or not I need to leave this game. He knows something that I don't, and playing an opponent like this just burns my time, money, and bankroll.

- Write in my journal after I play. I think this helps a lot because it helps me get my thoughts on paper. Also, after having bad sessions it helps me release some anxiety from residual tilt. This is also where I write down all the people I quit so I know not to play them again and to be proud of my progress of quitting people.

-Not be too self critical. I feel like I expect a lot from myself so when I fail to make a mistake I know I shouldn't be making I go really hard on myself and usually this causes me to make more mistakes. For example, today I failed to quit 2 players. Even though I made good quitting decisions on 5 other players not quitting these 2 players really cost me a bunch of EV. I'm mad at myself for not quitting and I expect better. How can I take it easier on myself?

-Take detailed notes in game. This is something I just started doing so I'm not too good at it yet but I feel like it helps me think about the player and how they think about the game so I can get inside their head and make good plays.

- Don't check the cashier. I had my best games and A game performance during a week where I didn't check my results. This means I never even knew how much I was up or down. It really let's you release your ego from your results and let's you play the best. This is something I need to work on doing, and before I have played my session I have been writing it as my session goal but the last 2 sessions I failed to accomplish this session goal.

Why do I feel like there is so much at stake when I am playing? Why do I expect so much of myself? Is this a good thing to do or are winning players approach the game differently? I'm doing my best to improve, but I feel like I can do more. I want to be a winning player, but right now I feel like just a impatient child. I'm trying to hard to win money and failing to execute the steps that make me win.

Can someone please slap some sense into me?

Thanks!