Hey guys!  

I've been lurking on here for well over a year and finally decided to open an account because this is by far the most honest, poker friendly gathering on the web.  Though i have a ''rant to chant'', I am very serious about improving my game. 

Quick background:  Grinding 1/2 PLO n NL pre Black Friday (FTP only) and them became very skeptical after that delightful ''Incident''.  Last summer I started grinding again PLO100 but switched to Stars because there's is no real action on FT.  Then end of September is when my troubles began.  The amount of Variance which I have run into is astounding, up to the present day.  7 straight months I have been repeatedly, with no remorse, been bended over and plugged in like eine Steckdose.   Last month I began playing Sit n Go's and this anal assault keeps persisting.  Lately I've been playing mainly NL, other than HU PLO where the assailant has relented somewhat.  It's just demoralizing to hit the flop and know the next 2 cards will help the V out.  I've gotten so used to it: it's a numb feeling.  I understand PLO but NL?  How many times I've been 3 outed (just this weekend) is .... there's no words.   If someone can explain to me how I can get Pokerstars to send me my HH for the last 6 months complete you will all bare witness to close to half a mil hands played and the graph of a lifetime.  They always send me 200 hands.  I have switched computers 4x since October them PT4 doesn't have all my old data on it.  If anyone has insight on this please share.

Now, why? why does this keep happening: why?  It's not stopping, it's increasing. I'm so serious about poker and have lost no confidence whatsoever over this assault on my manhood, but it's not stopping.  I'm not losing flips, I'm losing <80% consistently for 6 months.  I see the pattern, especially when being a shorter stack in a Sit n Go or tournament: you can predict the cards.  I never even played anything other than cash games but decided Sit n Go player pool has an average IQ of 75.  I'm really considering opening another account on Pokerstars just to see if it's only directed at me.  I'm at a loss of word.  This is madness.  I'm thinking of depositing 10k on new account and going back to mid stakes. I honestly believe its my account.  I don't want condescending advice, I want to know why I can't win against variance.  There is some pattern going on, I'm convinced.  I wish there were other sites with as much action as Stars.  fuck my rigged  life.