Hey guys,

How do you reduce your stress level when you are playing poker especially when you multitable ?
I know that the answer would be to play less table, but i don't already grind on a lot of table (only 3-4 spin and go table, i'm specialize in this format for three months and i feel like it's not enough. A lot of professionnal spin and go players arrives to play on 6 tables and i would like to play on the same number of table. So, i don't think that it's the solution and i force myself to play on 4 table even if sometimes i'm completely out-of-date. I'm very stressed and hate when i don't play my A Game, when i'm not concentrated and culpabilize a lot at any mistake (even very small mistake like sit out on one table before seeing my hand, or a push too loose in HU...). Very hard with myself in game.

I was semi-professionnal between July 2014 and March 2015 and played at that moment MTTs. I liked this format a lot and my volume was correct. Everything was going well. But after a downswing, and after losing a big part of my bankroll i decided to specialize in Spin and Go for rebuild my roll rapitedly. It didn't end well, i made some money on 25$ Spin and Go's (1700 games only, something like +4k$) but depenses this money and need to go on 10$ Spin. I lose 50 BI in 10$ but have the impression that i am crushing the field and the regs (not playing on .com and those regs are very exploitable). Don't want to be pretentious it's just a feeling you know, the game was largely tougher on 25$ spin and go and some regs was very good, much better than me.
I don't have any bankroll at all now (exactly 180$ right now) and don't want to play 3 or 5$ spin and go (i think that i will have even less motivation for grinding and your hourly is very low at this limit, prefer to have a "monthly job"). Besides, if i'm broke i know a friend who say that he will stake me. I haven't played a lot since May (something like 1000 game - 30 hours - + 15 hours of studying) and i think the problem it's because i don't enjoy the game anymore cuz i'm too stressed when i'm playing. Don't want to lose my "bankroll" and require to staking. And i find that grinding Spin and Go is quite repetitive. What would you recommend to struggle against the stress ? Meditation/preparation are maybe some good ideas but i have absolutely no idea how to do this effectively and to play more ? Any advices ? Thanks