Yep had a rough session yesterday where my ''accumulated emotion'' just took over and bloated my brain so quickly I could not use inject logic.
I have been running quite poor these 2 months overall, loosing alot of key pots. Basicly if I get it in as a favorite I either loose or we run it twice and chop. When I am behind I just loose regardless off my percentage. Miss alot off flops when I have good hands etc... I play live PLO so I am fully aware that the variance can be quite severe. But I have not experience such a bad run even on the internet. I had a really good session like a week ago where I finally run very well and won all my important hands. And right after that I had my worst session ever and lost most off it back...Felt like I got hope back that my ''bad run'' was over and it was killed right after.

It seems like I can't break through. Another problem is that I cannot get full sleep after my sessions. Yesterday I played tired which is stupid and wrong I know but I just moved to a new city and dont know anybody here. Sitting alone in the apartment another 100th time is really depressing and I went to the casino to be around people. I know stupid to go and play when you shouldn't but it feels like I am wasting my time when I can play and DONT. I have conselted help for my sleep issues, but it takes time to fix. I always to a cool-down after my sessions to try to feel better but yesterday I was so frustrated and with myself that I tiled that it would not let go. Took several hours before I fell asleep.

The sessions itself was not really interesting. I lost a small pot where I made a perhaps optimistic move, then my opponent got lucky vs me and 3rdly I made a really dumb bluff. After the bluff I got really angry and tilted for about 15 mins or so where I made 1 really bad all in and 2 bad calls. For working so hard with my mental game this year feeling this was like I went back in time 6 months and myself complete failure.

So now I am sitting here pissed, depressed and feeling like I am the worst poker player in the country and perhaps the best tilter.... LOL ;). I guess I just want to went out my emotions and feelings somehow. Yeah regardings tips plz dont say take a break I now that should have been done BEFORE I burnt myself out in a very dumb and not necessary session :P.

I really want to back and win my money so I wont feel so shitty(I know mental game money lost problem/desperation titl) at the same time sitting home tired and sad is also really bad. Seems like both options sucks although playing right now is just wrong EV wise.